There is something exciting about clean slate. The potential it holds.
As a kid I used to ridiculously excited about buying stationary for school each year. All that blank paper, waiting for thoughts and ideas to placed upon them. Even now when I go to book stores, my favourite area is not the fiction shelves, the technical book shelves, or the magazine stand, it’s the stationary area. Particularly the notebooks, so many styles and all begging me to express my thoughts, ideas or projects upon them. It’s the same with buying a new computer, it’s a new piece of equipment with a spanking fresh OS install, I can plan how to organise my folder structure, trim down the installed applications to just what I’m currently using and my mind exudes a clarity that immediately fills with potential projects and Cool Things to do.
And so it is with my life right now. Despite the best of intentions, the whole “lets just be friends” isn’t feasible for my ex and me, at least not with some significant amount of time apart. So here I am almost at a place I can in some ways call a clean slate. Not quite yet though, I still have to finish this PhD I foolishly committed to some 3 years ago. Purely by being in the same environment for so long has kept me from moving on due to so many memories over that time. I do immensely look forward being ALL DONE, then the world is my oyster, or at least my olive*.
There is one thing I might have trouble with though. The sheer limitless number of possibilities available when I buy a new book or computer often has me procrastinate for a long time while I try and weigh up my choices, trying to come up with the best plan. It’s difficult to overcome this block since before I start perfection is still a potential state for anything. I want things to be just right, and sometimes it prevents me from doing anything. I know it’s psychological, and that I should really follow Nike’s slogan: Just do it.
*since I’m potentially allergic to shell fish.
There is something exciting about clean slate. The potential it holds.
As a kid I used to ridiculously excited about buying stationary for school each year. All that blank paper, waiting for thoughts and ideas to placed upon them. Even now when I go to book stores, my favourite area is not the fiction shelves, the technical book shelves, or the magazine stand, it's the stationary area. Particularly the notebooks, so many styles and all begging me to express my thoughts, ideas or projects upon them. It's the same with buying a new computer, it's a new piece of equipment with a spanking fresh OS install, I can plan how to organise my folder structure, trim down the installed applications to just what I'm currently using and my mind exudes a clarity that immediately fills with potential projects and Cool Things to do.
And so it is with my life right now. Despite the best of intentions, the whole "lets just be friends" isn't feasible for my ex and me, at least not with some significant amount of time apart. So here I am almost at a place I can in some ways call a clean slate. Not quite yet though, I still have to finish this PhD I foolishly committed to some 3 years ago. Purely by being in the same environment for so long has kept me from moving on due to so many memories over that time. I do immensely look forward being ALL DONE, then the world is my oyster, or at least my olive*.
There is one thing I might have trouble with though. The sheer limitless number of possibilities available when I buy a new book or computer often has me procrastinate for a long time while I try and weigh up my choices, trying to come up with the best plan. It's difficult to overcome this block since before I start perfection is still a potential state for anything. I want things to be just right, and sometimes it prevents me from doing anything. I know it's psychological, and that I should really follow Nike's slogan: Just do it.
*since I'm potentially allergic to shell fish.
I’ve kept my DJ website with it’s mixes mostly separate from here, but thought my last mix was sufficiently different that it might appeal more to some of my other readers. There’s some Coil, Radiohead, Recoil, Jordan Reyne, and Tori Amos in there among others.
Check it out if you feel like listening to a trip-hoppy mellow mix for a change.
JetPilot – Times like these…
I've kept my DJ website with it's mixes mostly separate from here, but thought my last mix was sufficiently different that it might appeal more to some of my other readers. There's some Coil, Radiohead, Recoil, Jordan Reyne, and Tori Amos in there among others.
Check it out if you feel like listening to a trip-hoppy mellow mix for a change.
JetPilot - Times like these...
Dr. Joel Pitt is part scientist, part software engineer, and fascinated with artificial intelligence and consciousness. He spends most of his time as a lead developer on the open-source AGI research framework OpenCog, but is involved in ecological modelling, bioinformatics, data visualisation, and assorted other projects too.
