On having an addictive personality

Recently I’ve been assessing myself mentally. I’ve been reviewing the values and morals in my life trying to root out some subconscious beliefs and emotions that have been annoying me.

Through this I have discovered that I have a very addictive personality. Things that make me feel good are difficult for me to resist, although that isn’t the problem. The difficulty is being able to still enjoy things, but only in moderation. There is such a strong urge to binge on anything that is really difficult to describe fully to someone else.

I have a disposition to being addicted to drugs, but I can also be addicted to people and experience. None of these things are inherently bad, but if they begin to consume your life and you consciously don’t want whatever you crave but can’t resist it then there are problems. When the inevitable break in will power arrives, and once you’ve indulged your addiction, you look back with guilt and low self-esteem and think “I didn’t want that, damnit!”.

Hopefully further understanding of my weaknesses will only help me grow stronger.

Handling addictions



4 comments ↓

#1   Bob on 03.02.06 at 3:17 pm

I was going to say something but it wasn’t very optimistic. Comes from having a pessamistic personality :/

#2   Joel on 03.02.06 at 3:19 pm

I’m quite cynical and pessimistic too, I’d really like to be less so.

Actually I obsess on bad things because I have an inherent need to make them better. But you can’t change everything bad in the world, so I get overwhelmed sometimes.

#3   Jungle Rhino on 03.04.06 at 2:50 pm

your not talking about WoW are you? 😛

#4   Joel on 03.05.06 at 1:46 pm

Haha, no, not talking about WoW 😛

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